I started a post for today talking about my recovery and giving a few highlights so far. Something about it felt wrong and I think it’s because there are so many people in such worse health situations than me. Leading up to major surgery, I think it’s normal to worry that the worst could happen, but you have to quickly push that out of your head. I’ve thought a lot about Lauren Hill these past few weeks. She’s a young girl with terminal brain cancer who has raised well over one million dollars for research and has a contagious positive attitude. I’ve thought if she can stay so positive in her situation, then I can easily make it through my surgery and recovery. So instead, I decided to write about a slightly different topic. With this surgery, there are things I have to give up. I’ve decided to put a different spin on this and instead think of each thing in a way as something I’m gaining. Here are a few examples.
We have two beautiful children. The valve I got this time around is mechanical and requires me to take blood thinners for the rest of my life. Because of this, it is highly advised that I do not get pregnant. We hadn’t decided if we wanted to try and have more kids, but I know I didn’t want my doctor to be the one to make that decision. We struggled for three years to have Aiden and Audrey came as soon as we started trying. I can now see that this happened for a reason. There are so many families who wish and pray for a child and I know we are lucky to have our two precious babies. For as long as I can remember, I’ve said I want a boy first and then a girl. I got what I asked for, what more could I want?
|Aiden & Audrey|
I will always be sober. Also because of the blood thinner medication, I can only have 1-2 alcoholic drinks at a time. Ok, so not a huge deal but it is weird to think that I will forever be the designated driver and one glass of wine will be my limit at weddings. As a friend said when I told her this…at least you had your fun in college and the few years after! So true. I haven’t had many alcoholic drinks the past 5 years with trying to get pregnant, being pregnant and pumping. I’m used to it and it is nice. There are MUCH worse things in the world to give up.
|At a wedding, obviously a few years ago. How are my teeth so white?|
Tick Tock. If you’re in a quiet room with me and you hear a ticking, don’t worry it’s not a bomb. It’s my valve clicking away. Andrew can hear it on a regular basis, but I have yet to hear it, which is fine by me! An older couple at the hospital visited with my family while I was in surgery. He had the same surgery as me and got the same valve. His wife said the ticking is a comfort to her because she knows he’s still okay. I like the way she thinks.
Besides a few other small things, I will eventually be able to go back to a restriction free life. Pretty amazing when you think about all that happened.